2024 Review: Ate a spicebag and danced in my head

I listened to 221 minutes of music on the 10th of July. 
I Cried on a plane.
Passenger princessed a lot. 
Had my car broken into.
Bought a sage stick.
Cried on a plane (again).
Blasted Billie Eilish – Chiro on the M11 wondering if you even cared.
Solo travelled Europe. 
Felt lost when it ended.
I didn’t sleep for 72 hours.
Realised I actually can’t ride a bike.
Missed a Flix bus.
Caught a ride with semi-strangers.
Evacuated a festival.
Celebrated Midsummer and felt I could breathe again. 
I started a new job.
Shaved a leek.
Then I shaved a peach.
Filmed in public too many times.
I was asked by a stranger if I have ADHD.
I forgot to ask about it at my doctors appointment.
I was told I could do more with my life.
I wondered what they meant by that. Still do.
Argued with a parent.
Never spoke about it again.
Danced under windmills.
Danced in a bush in Portugal.
Danced in my head.
Danced with my problems.
I was asked what I do for work and never knew how to respond.
I Made videos that millions of people around the world have viewed.
I told myself I would read more. 
Told myself I would quit lots of things.
Told myself I’m strong enough.
Realised I wasn’t ok.
Said I wasn’t drinking.
Finished a whole bottle of wine.
Spent a lot of time at a house that wasn’t mine
Felt more like home than my own.
Felt lost when they moved out.
Knew it was never mine to begin with.
Said a hard goodbye.
Thought about deleting social media.
Felt overwhelmed responding to messages.
Felt hurt when you didn’t respond to mine.
Baked you a chocolate cake on your birthday.
Missed nature.
Missed connection.
Touched some grass.
Wondered if you still loved me.
Went to pub trivia for the first time.
Tried bouldering for the first time
then signed up for a membership.
Walked alone at night with a dead phone in a foreign country.
Felt scared.
Walked alone through life for a while.
Halved 32 cinnamon rolls.
Made friends with 3 baristas. 
Felt like I was cheating on coffee shops.
Ate a spicebag. 
Ate lots of bread, butter and cheese.
Had a conversation over pistachio icecream.
Didn’t speak my mind.
Got coffee with a stranger.
Cried too many times in cars. 
Cried too many times to you.
Cried at a hotdog stand.
Felt like I was regressing. Maybe I was just growing.
Smiled when you bought me gloves.
Smiled at sunsets.
Captured lots of photos only to wish I had captured more.
Thought running a half marathon would fix everything. 
Ran my first 18km.
Ran away from my problems.
Ran for a final boarding.
Got injured. 

All to ask myself what have I actually done this year.