no order:
- Got paid to play dress up and fried my hair in the process
- Chopped up dead mice and got annoyed when people said this was an animal rights issue
- Lived in the 1950s, lived half the world away, lived in a cave
- Dressed up as a giant ice cream
- Dressed up as a giant mouse
- Dressed up as a giant lizard
- Bought loads of dresses and cried in them all. Sent them all back and bought a sequin jumpsuit, cried in that too
- Turned 21 and felt sad about wasting time
- Fancied a lot of gay guys and didnt realise they were gay. Everyone else did
- Started basing my self worth on the state of my nails
- Based my entire personality on juuling and bleaching my hair (still working on this)
- Felt lonely, felt out of place but mostly felt bored.
- Went to Fluff HQ. Shelby thought I lived in New York. Drank cherry sours and laughed, felt so happy and didn’t want to leave
- Saw that relationships don’t have to be scary or alien but failed to put this into practice in my own life
- Tried to eat like a french girl
- Listened exclusively to French music and felt like a pretentious twat but kept doing it anyway
- Met people who made me feel confident and good about myself but continued to spend time with people who made me feel boring and overlooked
- Became someone who runs
- Became someone who keeps a diary
- Became obsessed with routine and pretended it was self care
- Gave up sugar and my skin cleared up then my hair started breaking off. Called this self care. Realised self care can be code for self destruction
- Struggled to find middle ground
- Decided to move to a tiny island, eat fruit and ignore the outside world and talk only to animals and in broken Croatian
- Realised I’m too much of an attention seeker for this
- Realised I need constant praise. Like a small spoilt child
- Was a bit of a mess but thought that made me more interesting than being anonymous. Embarrassed to admit this
- Cried at a train station at 4am while a drunk man tried to comfort me
- Over shared on social media and had people ask if I was ok. Multiple times. Embarrassing
- Read books to impress people. Not sure if it worked but enjoyed the books
- Tried to understand why people were acting the way they were by obsessively reading their horoscopes
- Made art for the sake of making art and got really sad about having nothing interesting or new to say
- Started writing stories and tried not to care that they were stupid
- Discovered green
- Ghosted people and was ghosted
- Ate too much
- Ate too little
- Spent too much time thinking about food
- Got upset when someone told me I couldn’t live off broccoli and mushrooms
- Fell in love with Timothee Chalament like everyone in the world
- Fell in love with Harry Styles like everyone in the world
- Realised i have a type
- Walked a lot. Walked for 6 hours straight in Melbourne
- Realised it’s easy to say you don’t care what people say about you when people only say nice things
- Felt embarrassed about having ambition
- Stopped being a baby and started being honest with myself about what I want and felt upset that I can’t seem to have it
- Met people I used to fangirl over, played it (relatively) cool. Felt like things were coming together
- Felt impatient for the future and frustrated by the present