nervous system is so overwhelmed due to trauma that is has caused my brain and my heart to be weird. I have been reflecting on this. I saw something the over day that I have also been reflecting on: If you had the chance to have a vaccine and be cured of all mental illness, would you take it?
Respectfully, some people said no. That they wouldn’t know who they were if they were mentally healthy, or they are who they are today because of their psychiatric disorders and trauma. That’s fair enough I guess. I can relate to that. But also, how fucking cool would it be to know who you really are without that variable?
I have been reflecting on this too. Who I would be if I was fully healthy. Would I be any different? I think I would be the same but happier. I would be able to be more present. My days wouldn’t be consuming.
I do have anxiety and depression and PTSD, and there is no cure. I am who I am with those variables and I am becoming okay with that. Whether I like it or not, maybe my trauma has shaped me to be who I am, and that’s okay too. I am empathetic, I listen super duper well, I cry a lot. These are all cool things I like about myself and maybe I wouldn’t have these cool things without the sad things.
Spend a few moments to reflect on these things. List the things you like about yourself, even if your unwired brain or trauma gifted them to you.
Would you get that vaccine?
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