Fwd: Crying

Crying can be good or bad.

It’s a way to release all your emotions at once.

Happy about something? Cry.

Angry? Cry.

Sad? Double cry.

I can’t help but cry all the time, it’s almost like it is the only way I can feel anything anymore.

Sometimes I feel too numb to even cry at all. I try and make the tears come but they just won’t and I feel helpless, like I need to get something off my chest so badly but I can’t because my body won’t let me. The only way I can make myself cry, is by watching one scene from ‘Dead Poets Society’, my true crying companion.

Sometimes crying is bad though.

It makes people feel awkward. I can’t help that.

It makes it so that people have to take care of you. Why can’t people understand that sometimes I just want to cry? I don’t need to be looked after.

And then it makes you feel worse. Everyone is affected by you showing emotion.

Crying is the one thing I am conformable with. I feel most like me when I cry. And I’m not sure if there’s something wrong with that or not?