I Feel Like I’m Not Even Good At What I’m Good At

But I’m working on it.

So here is the thing: I have one million plus interests and I can’t control my ever growing love for everything I lay my eyes on.

I’m constantly being inspired to try new things, and the bank of interests in my mind holds the stocks to around one million different avenues of creation. It continues to grow each day.

You know how some people say “you can’t be good at everything”? Well, with the multitude of interests I possess, the realization that I pretty much suck at all of them is quite exponential.

Pretty much my entire life I have been known to have “talents” in art and music. The kid who every other kid would ask to draw their bubble letters in art class. The kid who everyone asked how to play a G chord on guitar. Needless to say, I became quite comfortable with the fact that in my small town, I was talented enough that people would come to moi for advice and ideas.

When I left the confines of my tiny town, away from the people who believed in my “talents”, and moved into the big city – AKA the real world – I realized that everyone is literally better than me at everything I thought I was good at.

Even the tiny things I practiced on the side that I thought made me original, cool, quirky even. Things like riding my beat up penny board and knowing all the words to my favourite indie film’s opening monologues. People were better than me at those too. At first it was rough, it spiralled me into the abyss of coming to terms with the fact that people are going to be better than you at the things you want to be good at.

But that’s totally okay and valid. Grounding even. People are always going to be better than you at things. But you are always going to do them like you and not like them. So, technically speaking, you will always be the best at what you are doing.

So what this has taught me is: you can definitely not be good at everything, but you can for sure as hell have fun doing it.

Be good,

Alycia xx