Please care about me again.

In those split seconds I get to see you I fall in love with you all over again 

We have too much history 

Too many unfinished conversations 

I was always too scared to tell you how I felt and now it’s too late

If I told you how I felt now it would cause too much damage

To a friendship

To my heart

I fear your rejection

I have always feared your rejection 

I always used to wonder why you didn’t feel the same, what is wrong with me? 

But now I wonder what is wrong with you? Why would you not feel the same? 

I’m not meaning to sound vain but look at me and you, we are perfect for each other and you can’t even see it

I sound obsessive 

But I promise I’m not 

Well I don’t really know maybe I am

But I will always choose you over anyone else and no matter how many times you have rejected me I keep coming back and it’s not okay

Why are you so hard to read

I wish I could just pull your mind apart so I could know exactly how you feel

At least then I would know if I should start trying to move on or not

Sometimes you look into my eyes for a second too long or you send me an extra smiley face emoji and part of me sees it as a sign but that’s just stupid

Isn’t it? 

Why do we forget so much of ourselves when we are falling for someone else? why do we disregard our own happiness when we desperately want one person to want to be happy with us?

I can’t find a conclusion, you are clouding my mind