Shelby’s 2019
By Shelby Hamilton, December 16, 2019
Read time: 2 Mins
- Rough start
- Whale cry
- Why does love happen?
- Olive skin and white angel hair
- Printed words out on pink card
- Boy hair
- 21
- Ballet
- Hated modern art
- Loud
- Pink sideburns
- Met future me, they had pink sideburns too
- New shoes
- Didn’t speak, write or read for 10 days straight
- Slo mo
- Aura
- Made hearts with legs
- Missed Melbourne
- Had trouble sleeping
- Hamish
- Said no less
- Rupaul binge
- Came to terms with my anger
- Intern felt calm
- New passport
- World to live for
- Went across the ocean
- Landed in New York
- Found out what everyone is talking about
- Shaved my eyebrows off
- Faced my face
- Tried really hard not to run away, I’d still have all of the same problems elsewhere
- Opened my akashic records
- Wanted to be a girl
- Lost Monchy
- Felt like Shelby
- Laughed until I nearly peed
- Should I be a talkshow host?
- Really really danced
- Nihilism
- Started chewing my nails again
- Connected lots of dots
- Believed I was liked. Felt liked. And loved.
- Love letters
- After Effects
- Met Sam’s parents
- Wine
- Didn’t watch many films
- No wine
- Butterflies
- No such thing as coincidences
- Started my walk over some bridges
- Left my glasses on a plane
- Couldn’t see
- Learning is hard
- Hated all of my memories
- Costar addiction
- Vlogging
- Cleansed too much on a full moon
- Hysteria
- Felt okay about talking in front of a group of people
- Went to a baseball game
- Acupuncture
- Awful thoughts
- Money
- More money
- No money
- Called my mum less
- Listened
- Listening
- Too many things
- Started drinking batch brew coffee
- Felt like everyone was in on the joke except me
- Liked children’s company
- Found a perfect bookstore
- Ups and downs got easier
- Books
- Optimism
- New friends
- Didn’t write a single thing I liked, didn’t like a single thing I wrote.
- Forgetfulness
- Made eye contact
- Could I be a stand up comedian?
- High
- Comedown
- High again
- Felt squashed
- Knew what to do
- Bought myself a ticket to Japan
- New room
