Words on Growing up

No one told me how it would be.
Nobody could tell me what do to, how to act, when to forget.

Something so many people understood. Suddenly I felt like the only girl in the world.

I wish I could’ve told you but what would you think, even more clueless than I was.

Something that has escaped everyone’s minds, weighs me down.
I see differently, I’m not who I once was and pretend to be.

Conversations now aggravate me knowing this reality.

I wish someone told me I would feel like this.
No one could.

An instinct that has torn me open in a way I could never prepare you for.