It wasn’t him who ended it

By Jennie Bentley, April 21, 2020

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That person you hold so close to your heart, is no longer there.

Instead a different being stands before you.

Evolved from hard knocks in life that set him back…

This isn’t him anymore.

The one who brought you a hashbrown to a club in the middle of July.

The one who would stop by on his way home from work and say hello.

The one that acted like a clown just to see you belly laugh.

And the one that said he would never give up on this…

This isn’t him anymore.

The one who let go of you is anxious, resentful, disconnected.

This fantasy bubble he played up so well with words,

Was no longer him.


Was no longer the thing that connected.

This isn’t him anymore.

After almost three years these dates were meant to be to get to know each other.

A fresh start on a stagnant period of our relationship.

Getting to know the beings we have become.

And so, here it is, here is him.

The one that couldn’t handle it, couldn’t stand up to his mother.

The one that cursed the world for being too hard, and so gave up so easily.

The one with no opinion, who was confused…

THAT is who ended it with you.

Not the bear that lived to hear your 5 year old laugh.

That person is gone now.

And this person who has emerged from the ruins of his own life,

HE is the one who gave up…

Because he is the same one that never fully gave in.

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