Thought that teenagers were inherently bad people
Realised that was a generalisation
First accidental ‘I love you’
Kissed too many people without emotional investment
Turned to divination
Saw a ghost
Had a breakdown. Dyed my hair blue. Turned out green
Named my fish after a Russian spy. He died. Had a funeral and everything
Got put in quarantine
Felt really alone in a hospital room
Had fever dreams
Blanked out a lot
Hallucinated while sleep-deprived
Made art while sleep-deprived
Showed people my art
Was someone’s muse
Bought too many crystal wine glasses from Salvos. Don’t let me buy anymore
Threw a full moon dinner party
Finally got my negatives from art camp developed. I miss the school dark room
Went to a fortune teller. Got told that I’m going to take a lot of risks next year
Taught myself how to read palms
A lot of my dreams turned out to be premonition
Went to Melbourne. The first trip I’ve taken without my parents
Never made it to the MCA
Thought I wanted to be a curator
Thought I wanted to be a multimedia installation artist
Drank so much red wine
Kept a half-burnt copy of The Communist Manifesto in my car for too long
Burnt a lot of Cannabis incense. Got sad when I realised it wasn’t real cannabis
Drew on a lot of things with sharpie
Smoked hand-rolled cigarettes for the first time
Had another breakdown. Dug up my dead fish’s grave. I should’ve known he wouldn’t still be there
Went train spotting
Didn’t sleep for 4 days
Walked on the road at 3am a lot
Made a short film. I hated it
Lost control of my car
Was paranoid to drive again
Drank my friend’s tears
Over-used the word immersive
Sat really close to Stevie Nicks
Swallowed 5 cents
Slept in my car overnight
Took myself to the movies a lot
Cried in an empty cinema
Took day trips to the city
Watched my friends cut their hair over the bathroom sink
Got a playlist made for me
Told a lot of people that I think they’re a god
Used payphones more
Felt like I was being treated as disposable
Lost my friends
Felt morally conflicted a lot
Questioned whether I was a good person a lot
Questioned peoples humanity
Got into intense relationships
Recognised that I’m self-destructive
Got really bored with people
Didn’t say goodbye
I should’ve
Got better at registering when it would be the last time I’d see someone
Grew out my fringe
Drank a lot of juice
Performed an exorcism
Got into design school
Got ready to move out of my teenage bedroom.
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