big dreams
kissed my best friend on new years
took a lot of pictures of my feet
almost started selling them
got too high but never felt often enough
remembered things I didn’t want to remember
couldn’t forget them again
became selfish
tried to cook, hated it
ordered in way too many times
met some witches, did some witchcraft
hated my brain
ugly cried and yelled at my parents
finally made peace with my family
went to Iceland alone
believed in fairies
called myself a fairy
oh, maybe I really am psychic
got addicted to cigarettes
got a tattoo
got a Furby
lost a roommate
felt rage like no other
watched girl, interrupted like it was my job
found real magic, got bored of it
skipped classes
dropped out of school
got another tattoo
believed in family again
started having dance parties in my room
drank alone
got a job fixing leggings
loved it until I didn’t
that’s just how I am
felt proud of myself
felt like I had a lot of money, but never felt like it was enough
wanted to change
realized I could speak and that I wouldn’t catch on fire for being honest
started being more honest
started writing more
met myself for the first time
then a second time
until I lost count
more tattoos
moved back home
quit my job
got a new job
believed in sheer luck
fate?
felt like an adult finally
until I didn’t lol
surprised myself
laughed A LOT
stopped planning everything
forgave myself
forgave a lot of people
waiting to forgive more people
patience
unconditional love
Return to issues